Raison d'être

thesoulfunkybrother:

-NIGERIA. Lagos. New areas of housing 1982

thesoulfunkybrother:

-sharing is caring .

thesoulfunkybrother:

-DOMINICAN REPUBLIC 1980

visitheworld:

The mayan pyramid at Caracol in Cayo district, Belize (by mike.bulter).

What surgery? sorry if I'm asking something personal.

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Anonymous

It’s fine. I was born with a birth defect called cleft lip and palate, if you’re not sure what it is I’m sure you have seen it before since it’s not that rare. And well I’ve had about 13 reconstructive surgeries since I was a baby so that I could have a more normal appearance. Before last year, my lip was still deformed and it was noticeable that something was wrong with it and it caused me a lot of problems socially and with my self-esteem, so I got it fixed last year.

MY LIFE IS LITERALLY SUCH A PIECE OF SHIT. THAT’S WHY I DON’T BELIEVE IN THAT “BEING POSITIVE” BULLSHIT BECAUSE THEN I END UP FEELING LIKE A DUMBASS WHEN THINGS GO WRONG, WHICH IS ALL THE FUCKING TIME.

FOR EXAMPLE. I GET MY SURGERY AND THINK THAT BY GETTING IT PEOPLE ARE GONNA RESPECT ME MORE AND NOT STARE AT ME MORE, BUT I STILL GET TREATED LIKE SHIT BY THE PEOPLE AROUND ME. I SWITCH SCHOOLS HOPING FOR A “NEW BEGINNING” AND I GET EVEN MORE DEPRESSED BECAUSE I’M A FUCKING LONER AND HAVE NO FRIENDS.

I DECIDE THAT I SHOULD COME STAY IN FLORIDA WITH MY MOM’S FRIEND FOR TWO WEEKS THINKING THAT I’M GONNA GET TO GO OUT AND ENJOY MYSELF AND MEET NEW PEOPLE BUT I’M STUCK IN THE HOUSE ALL FUCKING DAY DOING CHORES FOR HER LAZY ASS FUCKING KIDS. AND SHE EVEN WANTS TO SHOVE HER RELIGION DOWN MY THROAT BY TAKING ME TO CHURCH. WHEN I THOUGHT ABOUT MOVING IN WITH THEM WHEN I GRADUATED SO I CAN GO TO COLLEGE HERE, NOT ANY FUCKING MORE. AND I’M PROBABLY GONNA HAVE TO STAY IN SAN DIEGO WHICH I FUCKING HATE THAT’S THE ONLY PLACE WHERE I FEEL THE MOST MISERABLE, YEAH SUICIDE DEFINITELY HAS ME CONVINCED. BUT I DON’T WANT TO HURT MY MOM AND GRANDMA BY DOING IT. HOPEFULLY I DIE IN SOME KIND OF ACCIDENT.

I hate to be so persistent. It seems as if I'm annoying u. But I can't fathom the idea that losing your life is the only option. U say that you're bored in Florida because of other people. That should give you somethin to reach for. Your independence

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Anonymous

Nooo you don’t annoy me at all. I’m only hear for two weeks though. What depresses me is going back to san diego. In a few words, I’m always depressed and idk how to fix it. Nothing is right and I feel like there are so many reasons to die and none to live.

Someone has to understand. At least allow someone to listen to u. Trust me. Talk to someone. It's worth a try and it can make a big change in your life. You're the author of your story. You can change things. Look how ppl already reached out on here.

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Anonymous

I know they care, but talking about it won’t fix anything, I’ve already tried. And trust me I try so hard to make things better but I always fail because of things/people I have no control over.

smile :) everything will turn out fine.

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Anonymous

:(

There's ALWAYS a better option then ending it. I'm sorry to hear that things have been really rough in life up to this point, but having you end your life because you aren't happy hurts me deeply and I don't even know you. Reach out to those around u

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Anonymous

Thank you. But no one understands.

Try to speak to someone. Break free! (Within safe measures of course) but ending it won't be the best. We all go through rough phases, some longer than others, but I know things will get better. You just got to keep in open mind and your head up!

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Anonymous

I’ve been feeling this way for years and I’m tired of it. I really want to end it all.